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I wasn't going to do this but my friend flaked on me so I haven't got no one to cry to except for you polyvore.
I don't get you. You told me there was something wrong with me because I cut. You told me I needed help. You had a ; on your hand so I decided to ask near my mum why you want that tattooed when you had trouble answering I realized you were one of them. It was at tafe when I noticed your cuts and I don't know how I didn't see them before because you don't cover them up or even seem depressed nor do you seem to care everyone can see them and is judging. It seems like every teenager these days had scars and cuts on their arm. But you. You went and told a teacher because you were 'worried but when I saw them at tafe you tell me it's a secret putting your finger to your lips and silencing me. You are a big f******** hypocrite! I hated myself even more for what I did after you and the more I did it the more I wanted to quit life. You wonder why I don't tell you big secrets you either spread it around and/or you tell me I am wrong and you don't like it. So if you are like cutting now does that mean it is right for me to do it. Do I finally have your blessing?
And you, you went with your friend for lunch didn't even text. Nothing. Just stood me up. I needed you and you stood me up. Guess you're not a good best friend are you? I guess your other possibly your only best friend is more important than me and you would drop everything for her. You dropped me so I wonder what else you would drop. I guess I don't really have that best friend who will be there for me ever. I guess I just have friends.

I feel you should have your own set with your own description.
I fell once again crushed on my best friend. I lied about my feelings for a long time.I pushed you away from my life a lot because I was scared it wasn't because I hated you as I claimed all those times it was in fact the complete opposite. You would never fall for me I always told myself so I moved on and crushed on my other best friend. Just as you were leaving this town was the time we were both honest to each other. You are soo beautiful inside and out. You are just amazing that I run out of words because none of them describe how perfectly imperfect you are. I run out of ways to say how much I love you. I just can't believe it took me so long to be myself and be honest to you. I have missed the time to be with you, to be in your arms, to be yours. I just love you. I love everything about you. The way you know when I am not ok or you know I have something to say but i'm too scared to say it and somehow you manage to get me to say it. I love that you help everyone else before you help yourself. I just love you and I never thought you would feel the same for me. Never. Sometimes I still can't believe it. We won't be together but that doesn't change anything.

You have made my holidays. We may not have ended up together but I just want you to look back and miss me. Miss what we shared, how we felt just everything.I love you and I will always have place in my heart for you. I am always here just remember that.

I have always changed myself for other people to like me, for me to fit in. I originally came on polyvore because of people and made horrible fashion sets because I have no taste nor do I care about fashion but I followed everyone else. Last year I realised that me maybe wasn't as bad as I thought. I had a lot of struggles but somehow I managed to remain who I was. I just finally feel happy and I finally feel free. I am just me. I am not perfect but I am more than average.

It has been a while since I made a set, been very busy. I am missing making sets so much and viewing the awesome creations of my friends.... So much has happened in the past few months I haven't been on. I could have a massive vent but I don't think I will. Currently on holidays which is great just relaxing and chilling with the family. Recurring injury to my ankle has made sure I get lots of bed rest this holiday. Loving life... for now.